Ok im done with everything.Im done with these stupid little word games and this stupid little island of drama that has roosted above my fucking head.I have nothing more to say about anybody.Im just going to keep to myself and the people who support me and actually care.There may not be a lot of them but atleast there are some.I dont know what has happened to people these days.Why cant we have a stress and drama fuckin free world?I cant even get on this site anymore cause shit that JEREMY write stresses me out so much that i practically pass out again.The stress is what does it, like i've said before and i really dont think he understands that.I would figure if he really cared so much that he would try to MINIMIZE my stress level like everyone else is trying to do. Bun NOOOOOOOO he has to be stubborn ass jeremy and try to prove his points to the whole damn world.ok not the whole world just me and my mom.cause i guess im to "ignorant" to decipher anything that comes out of anyones mouth. but all this shit with jeremy trying to get Georgia is making me misserable.I honestly dont know what i would do without her.she is the only thing that means more to me than my own life.I've already lost one baby due to a stillbirth and im not about to lose another due to a pain in the ass conceites punk who doesnt know the first thing about what is good for a baby or even how to take care of one. I have the experience. I took care of my niece for 2.5 years of her life, i know what im doing, i know how to do it and i KNOW that i will be a fabulouse parent.Im the one who has been carrying Georgia for 9 months and nurturing her and caring for her.I go to the hospital when i think something is wrong and i go to my appointments regularly and i quit smoking to ensure her health and i've been doing everything and will continue to do everything until i die to make sure my baby girl is ok.thats what a mother does,thats what im going to do.and when someone threatens to take that away and to take away my baby that IVE CARED FOR for the past 9 months really upsets me.I've already lost one child and im not going to lose another one.Im trying to look out for Georgias well being and yet it seems like jeremy is making me out to look like im a bad person for doing it.And honestly i havent seen jeremy be there for me or the baby up until just recently.He never wanted anything to do with it until i requested childsupport.then this whole big mess started up.and quite frankly i dont get it.and hes talkin about my sexuality and shit, but i dont think it ever occured to him that i felt he was safe to be with cause he was closer to the gay side of the fence and i have been raped and beaten so many times by straight guys that my mentality told me maybe a closer to gay man would be safer for me or a woman would be safer for me.obviousely i was wrong.and honestly i dont give a flying fuck about anyones sexuality at all.i just wanted to know that if he was completely gay why was he fucking me and if he didnt want to get me pregnant then why did he want to have unprotected sex with me?thats it.sexuality has nothing to do with my deccision making at all.

You know what im sick and tired of people trying to tell me how to raise my child and further more im tired of my babys dad telling me that he is going to take my daughter away if i cant hold up the financial responsibility of raising her.he is the one refusing to pay child support which means i have to have a part time job finish school and raise a baby all on my own because obviousely jeremy isnt man enough to accept his responsibility in the matter.he acts like i got myself pregnant and he had nothing to do with it. Now he is claiming that he is in fact gay...so why was he sleeping with me?obviousely he just wanted to prove to people that he was a man and could get a female pregnant.but in reality he isnt a man at all..........he can indeed get a girl pregnant, but he can support the girl or the child, or should i say refuses too.im tired of everyones crap! The only support i get is my mom, my sister, my counsler, a few friends and my father.and the only one out of them that is helping me financially is my mom.FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!im tired of feeling like im inferior to jeremy and his family even though i know im not.I come from a much more respectful and decent family than he has ever dreamed of.im not trying to be concieted or anything but i was raised to be a respectful responsible and all around good person, yes i fell off track a lot but i got myself back on track and i feel like a better person becaue of it.I guess if jeremy wants to make me feel like im the bad guy thats his thing,but i dont appreciate it cause i know that in this particular case im not.and im not wrong about the way im hadling the situation. i mean for real why would i want someone who cant finish drug treatment, refuses to pay child support, probably isnt clean and sober and who threatens to kidnap my baby around me or my child with out supervision and UA's etc.?if i did let him around i would not be being a responsible mother or adult.yeah im only 17 and technically that makes me a child still but now that im about to be a mother i cant act like a child anymore.Jeremy shouldnt be acting like a child eaither but her is. i personally refuse to do that.so he can eat those apples and if he doesnt like them then oh well.